Frustrations!

Okay boys, here's what I need you to get through your heads NOW.

I cannot text every minute of every freaking day, I have summer homework that I've put off, work, and friends that I don't get to see because of work. When I have band camp next week and don't text at all, are you going to disown me or something? Because that's what I'm gonna think if you keep this up.

Stop taking back everything that you say because you think it has made me mad. Be confident about yourself damn it. I do not need a yes man for a boyfriend. Nor do any other girls that aren't straight up bullies.

That said, if I say something hasn't made me mad, then for the love of god, why think it's made me mad? I'm not trying to be confusing, I'm just trying to

I leave for work really early, and I was trying to go to sleep at nine, until the sound of my phone going off with your texts made me so mad that I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep for a while.

I love you is not a suitable phrase to use when you've been going out for a couple of days and have known each other for a week. This rule has no exceptions! And that includes misspellings of words to be cutesy and pretend that it doesn't mean anything. When did people start thinking you have to be in love to go out at all? THIS IS NOT HOW LIFE WORKS


And here's what I need to get through my head very fast as well.

Deciding to date a boy and go against the decision you made several months ago to not date anyone because you will be leaving for college in a year, take five AP classes next year, and just a general amount of business in your life, is not smart. It will make you angry at the boy to somewhat unfair lengths just because you are mad at yourself for being so stupid.


Yeah, if you caught on to what is going on there, I have had a boyfriend for two days, and he has been a nightmare. The problem is he is just the sweetest, nerdiest boy, and I'm his first girlfriend, so I have no idea if what will hurt him most in the long run: breaking up with him in the first few days of his first relationship, or going on with it when I don't want to and effectively skewing his perception of what a relationship is supposed to be.

I'm so stupid for getting myself into this mess
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

This Will Never End

I've been putting off making this blog post for a while. I've wanted to write it for weeks, but then I found out I wasn't going at midnight, and then on Sunday, once my plans had been completely made to see it at midnight anyway (I'm going to visit Courtney at her sister's house, and we are going at midnight, and then she is taking me back the next morning, and my dad had already agreed before he realized what night it was so I'm in) I decided I would write this the next day. Then the power went out because of a mondo storm. So here I am.

People are freaking out over "the end of Harry Potter" but here's the thing, everyone did that for the books. They freaked out, and then they realized there would be the movies, and that the community completely outweighs the lack of new material. Yes, the fandom has died down a bit, but it's still there, and I think that the people that are here, right now, in this fandom, they are not going anywhere. We are a group as tight knit as any. We have bands and cosplay and fanfiction and forums and unofficial rpg sites and friendship.

Not only that, but this isn't the end. Pottermore is coming. That is enough to keep me from breaking down about how sad this is. I am going to be able to explore the world like nobody's business. We might FINALLY know the names of those two remaining Gryffindor girls in Harry's year! (that seems completely silly, but trust me, it is major for me. Now there will be fanfiction about two girls who matter to the storyline in no way whatsoever. YAY!) We will know if any of the professors are married, or just....

Really, the wealth of knowledge waiting is enough to keep me there.

And then we must go on to some recent statements of JK Rowling. She used to, before the 7th book was coming out say, anytime that she was asked, that there would never be more Potter books. Now, she says you never know. The idea that there could be a book or books about Albus and Scorpius makes me happy.

So while I am going to go through the nostalgia for these next few days, rereading the rest of HP (I'm in the middle of the 4th. I might have to skip the 5th. I can't skip the 6th, cuz it always comes as a package with the 7th to me, and I'd be stupid to skip the 7th.) I'm going to watch HP7P1 again, and my ipod will be exclusively playing wrock for the next few days. But it's not over, it will never be over, and I can't wait for what the future brings this fandom.

Also, I know that you don't dedicate blog posts, but this one needs to be dedicated to Kat (thanks for the Jacket) and Courtney (thanks for convincing your parents to come early enough to let you see this last movie with me). You two just... you know why this post is dedicated to you.

~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

Things I Don't Understand

I don't understand tumblr. I have no idea how it works and it honestly scares me from the vague things I see. If I was given a tumblr, I don't think anyone would ever see me again.

I don't understand bikini waxing, or really waxing in general. PAIN!

Also, uh, landscaping down there. What is it supposed to look like if you do anything? It doesn't seem like it would be a good idea to shave down there...

What the big deal about gay marriage is. I mean, why do people think it's wrong? It touches them in no way whatsoever...

Speaking of gay marriage, why do people not realize this video is making fun of people against gay marriage? The majority of the comments are negative, but it's a great video.

Why people think it's strange that when I'm done with college I want to just move to Montana and have my own life. What's wrong with Montana?

Why America has been a great democracy for so long, yet so many people are prudes.

yup
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

HEADDESK!

I hate saying that I'm bored, I really do. I'm the person who says that only boring people are bored, or tries to give them something else to do, but I have to admit it now, I AM BORED.

So f***ing bored.

Nobody texts me back, they all do things together without thinking to invite me despite the fact that I can take my bike and be over in two minutes. Anytime I try to plan anything, everyone backs out right before it works out.

And then I'm working down where I used to live, and my parents seem to have this fantasy built up in their heads that I still talk to everyone down there, and I am friends with them, and could just pop by without planning waaaaay in advance. The only person I'm really friends with down there is Niki.

I have to work from 4 to 830 on the 4th of July as well, which means missing out on this awesome party that I've been anticipating for about a month. And my dad says I can't go see Harry Potter at midnight, which I have been anticipating since he said I couldn't see the last movie. THIS IS THE LAST THING I GET TO DO RELATED TO HARRY POTTER, AND I CAN'T DO IT!

I don't mean to complain so much, it's just that I normally can always find something to look at on the bright side, and today and yesterday I have seen NOTHING. My video game even revolted against me completely unfairly. It lost one of my characters halfway through the level, and I had to go and restart because I needed the character to even be able to move on.

AUGH *headdesk*
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek