Frustrations!

Okay boys, here's what I need you to get through your heads NOW.

I cannot text every minute of every freaking day, I have summer homework that I've put off, work, and friends that I don't get to see because of work. When I have band camp next week and don't text at all, are you going to disown me or something? Because that's what I'm gonna think if you keep this up.

Stop taking back everything that you say because you think it has made me mad. Be confident about yourself damn it. I do not need a yes man for a boyfriend. Nor do any other girls that aren't straight up bullies.

That said, if I say something hasn't made me mad, then for the love of god, why think it's made me mad? I'm not trying to be confusing, I'm just trying to

I leave for work really early, and I was trying to go to sleep at nine, until the sound of my phone going off with your texts made me so mad that I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep for a while.

I love you is not a suitable phrase to use when you've been going out for a couple of days and have known each other for a week. This rule has no exceptions! And that includes misspellings of words to be cutesy and pretend that it doesn't mean anything. When did people start thinking you have to be in love to go out at all? THIS IS NOT HOW LIFE WORKS


And here's what I need to get through my head very fast as well.

Deciding to date a boy and go against the decision you made several months ago to not date anyone because you will be leaving for college in a year, take five AP classes next year, and just a general amount of business in your life, is not smart. It will make you angry at the boy to somewhat unfair lengths just because you are mad at yourself for being so stupid.


Yeah, if you caught on to what is going on there, I have had a boyfriend for two days, and he has been a nightmare. The problem is he is just the sweetest, nerdiest boy, and I'm his first girlfriend, so I have no idea if what will hurt him most in the long run: breaking up with him in the first few days of his first relationship, or going on with it when I don't want to and effectively skewing his perception of what a relationship is supposed to be.

I'm so stupid for getting myself into this mess
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek