Wednesday, October 27, 2010

My inner voice

Inner Voice: I see you're wearing the sweatpants shorts combo today.
Me: You betcha
I.V.: Is there a point?
Me: Band-O-Rama
I.V.: Okay then. But remember, you are the weirdest person I know
Me: I'm the only person you know.
I.V.: ...
Me: It's okay, I love you. Even though you are me... but then I should love me, although not too much that would be vain... but then what is vain? You know *continues mindless chattering*
I.V.: *facepalm*

That is all
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

Sunday, October 24, 2010

PANTS

I am buying PANTS today. You have no idea how much this excites me. I will now list why this excites me.

1) Fall is cold, and pants are warm
2) I only own 5 pairs of pants. The rest of my clothes are summery skirts
3) We are going to old navy. I like old navy.
4) I can look at more skirts as well
5) and maybe some long sleeve shirts
6) tights or leggings?
7) maybe some flats...
8) Ooh, how about a sweatshirt?

Quite obviously, I have not been fall shopping in a while. And though I am not normally the shopping type, I can be a little excited right?? I mean, I haven't been able to get a proper new set of clothes in a while. It's always just a tee-shirt or a skirt or a dress every once in a while. Plus, I realized about a week ago that all of my shirts are either red, green, grey or baggy (ex: show shirts, baseball tshirts, in and out burger shirts...). I personally like blue, but I only have one shirt. Orange and yellow I can do without. And a spot of purple might be nice. I mean, in order to wear purple earlier this week in recognition of those who committed suicide because of gay bullying I had to steal my mom's purple hoodie.

Oh, a couple other reasons I am excited for pants:

9) Old Navy is next to the bookstore.
10) I need to buy the crucible.
11) After I buy the crucible, I can lurk through the YA books.

Oh gosh, and I get to buy a new fleece jacket soon, and then a winter coat and gloves and a hat.

I'm really not normally this excited for clothes. I swear. It's just nice to have new things every once in a while.

Plus, I think the greatest thing about this all for me is that soon there will be SNOW. I haven't seen snow in three years. I'm EXCITED.

Is there anyone else who shares my normal aversion to clothes except in rare cases? What are those rare cases? I want to know.

Now I must go, because I have to print a borders coupon and see if my pants are out of the dryer so I can venture into the world.

Hope your weekend has been relaxing and/or fun!
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: In order to keep track of my NaNoWriMo without turning this blog into a NaNoWriMo blog for a month, I have created this blog: http://50kisinsane.blogspot.com/ I am going to make my first post on there today. And I promise not to utter the word NaNoWriMo on this blog in order to maintain my sanity, and possibly yours.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

School, NaNoWriMo, and BAND =)

Ah, okay, I'm totally falling behind in school work, but I love you all who read this, because you all have special armbands, so yeah.

Wow. I have no idea what THAT was.

Right, so I have an audition this Friday, I have definitely not practiced nearly enough for that. Then my math homework has been taking me a lot of time, because I'm playing catch up since this school pairs Alg 2 and Trig and AUGH. And English makes me write essays, and NaNoWriMo...

I've narrowed NaNoWriMo down to the two stories I've already been working on. I think I'm leaning towards the story I wrote in middle school. But you are not holding me to that whatsoever. I will know for sure after this weekend, because I am having a sticky note day this weekend maybe with my friend Niki maybe not with her. I should ask her about that again, I slack off too much xD

Oh, and speaking of NaNoWriMo, Jess (not me Jess) commented on my post yesterday about a project she is doing that ties into NaNoWriMo, so if you are going to be giving up your November this year as well, you should go to this link: http://nanonerdfighters.blogspot.com/

Right so I'm going to be going, because I have a lot of other online procrastination things to do before dinner. Cuz after dinner I will be a good little girl and do my homework... maybe xD
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: My band won first place in our division on Sunday, and it was awesome, even if I didn't get home to my bed until 11 PM that night.
PPS: I just remembered, one of our drum majors gave us a shout out that began "You are all beautiful like trees" Oh gosh, I wish I'd been allowed to laugh.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

NaNoWriMo

Is anyone doing NaNoWriMo this year?

I always want to do NaNoWriMo, but the first year I knew about it I was in 7th grade, and knew there was no realistic way for me to pull it off, especially since we were in the middle of a move that month, and lived in a hotel for half of the month. A year later I was a 13 year old ninth grader, in the wake of my first marching season, and was more focused on fanfiction. It wasn't right for me then. Last year, I was very excited to do it with almost no plot to go on, but then I got grounded because I'd gotten some bad grades, and lost my laptop/internet until December. So now we're to this year.

I have a few different stories I've been considering working on. First is a series I originally wrote a large chunk of in middle school, that I think has marinaded (to use the words of Maureen Johnson's editor) long enough for me to be able to work on fixing a lot of its original problems in a complete redraft. Then I have another story I was working on towards the end of this summer that I stopped working on because of school and it only having an end goal, but no plot for in between whatsoever.

I also have two very sketchy plot outlines in my head. One about a girl growing up in sort of post apocalyptic world a few centuries from our own who wants to see rain. And another about a girl's life once she has returned to her family after being kidnapped ten years before.

All of these issues have their own strengths and issues. The series is one that I actually plotted out in a more structured way than anything else I'm considering, but that also means figuring out what to cut for plot pace. My summer story has a lack of plot that I've already mentioned, but I have a very clear picture of the characters. The first plot outline I've been thinking about for half a year, so there are a lot of little details I already know, but then I have no plot to go with it right now. The final plot is one that I came up with a couple of weeks ago when I realized it was almost NaNoWriMo, so there aren't any details, and the storyline also comes with a lot of research that I'm not sure I can do in 2 weeks, but then right now it could go anywhere.

I have no idea which of these stories I will do. If any considering that I'm not sure how busy I will be in November, and this all makes me really nervous. But then I know that sitting around like this will mean me never writing anything, which is counter productive,but I know myself, and I am lazy.

In other news, this has to be the craziest week I've had in a long time, and because of all the crazy going on, I havent gotten a proper night of sleep all week I would have finally caught up on some sleep today if it hadn't been decided that I was going to drive us to the commissary and be woken up far too early for someone who hasn't been sleeping and RAWR! Things just aren't going the way they should be, and I find myself far too stressed out. I just want one night where I can get to bed at nine and wake up at noon *sigh*

Yours,
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

Monday, October 11, 2010

Silence

Some people have this intense need to fill every moment with chatter. Sometimes I am this person. Most of the time, however, I am not.

Silence is something deeply embedded in me. My mother is Finnish, and says in childhood you're told you shouldn't speak unless you have something to say. I used to read almost constantly, and reveled in days spent in bed or in an armchair reading a new book, which easily leads to silence (at least when I was a young child it did, because iTunes did not exist to be beckoned for every waking moment).

In a restaurant, my family is the quiet group sitting and enjoying their food. For the French, food is culture, which includes conversation, and that's great for them. But a lot of the time when I sit down for dinner, it's nice to have a bit of silence now and then to truly enjoy your food. And the silence is never awkward. It's simply nice.

Ashley was/is one of my best friends for a reason. While I can't say I knew everything about her, I sure knew a lot about her. And eventually we fell into an entirely pleasant routine of silence together. Never, again, awkward. We've had phone calls that are simply us just sitting there knowing that the other person is at the other end. And she sort of baffles me with this ability, because her house is always lively with five children inside.

Maybe part of this love of silence so ingrained in me is what it means. If you aren't awkwardly silent with someone, yet are silent with that person a lot, it tends to mean that the conversations you do have are more meaningful in some way. And a non-awkward silence implies a large amount of comfort with the person. You don't need to say anything. In some ways, it's almost telekinetic, because your thoughts can be at the same place without anyone needing to say it.

And why ruin a perfect moment by talking about it. You pull away from the experience when you do that. If you're looking at the stars lying in your significant other's arms, talking might just ruin the moment. Or perhaps, to pull away from something as obviously amazing and wonderful, simply the act of talking while watching a movie can ruin things and pull you out of what you're experiencing.

Silence is golden. You cannot contest that.
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: I met John Green! I made a video, and added some extra details in a post on my collab blog, which can be seen by clicking here.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Choices

Gah, I said I'd post every day this weekend.

I'm sort of at that point of tired where you feel heavy. But my mind is inherently telling me that I'm not going to be able to sleep yet. And I know it's right, because my room is an oven right now. I liked fall better when it was cold >_<

My mind is all in a tizzy, just going this-a-way and that-a-way. It's thinking about what choices mean. I mostly blame this on a lot of reading of a blog about Fringe today. And then of course watching some vlogbrothers videos that discussed choices, and having some twitter people speak of it today. And then having some choices come up for myself. Choices are everywhere today.

It's not exactly like I have an opinion of choices in general and their implications. More of just a viewpoint of awe that I can't quite explain. Choices make everything the way it is, but in the end perhaps these choices are predestined. Or maybe one simplistic choice to kick a rock could lead to a future Apocalypse. Or maybe kicking that rock will have no effect on the world ever again. The rock will simply continue to exist without any impact ever again.

Then there is that profound feeling of inability to control things through any choice you make. I've been missing my friends a lot lately. And there isn't much I can do about it. We talk of course, but it's not the same as real person contact, and short of saving every penny I get towards plane tickets there isn't much I can do. And most of my allowance goes towards eating lunch, and getting my friends presents for birthdays, and Christmas, and just because I know they would love something, and it's the only way I can think of sharing it with them. I am such a sap. And then things have come up lately, like being caught up on some gossip, that caused me to realize how much things are changing without me. I mean, one of my friends has even seemed to have flipped their entire set of core values and I have no clue how it happened.

I really just want to go to sleep. My room is so damn warm.
~Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: Nerdfighter meet up tomorrow! *uber excited*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

FOUR DAY WEEKEND!!!!

Oh school, how I do love thee. Particularly when I don't have to be with you. That's when you make me love you the most.

I am insanely excited for this weekend. Four day weekends happened frequently enough in Hawaii with the furloha fridays that they weren't a big deal, but now they feel like an epically big deal. So here is what I plan for my weekend:

Today
I am currently relaxing and catching up on internet things. Tonight I am having chipotle for dinner, which is gonna be so awesome, cuz it'll be at the new one by my house that opened yesterday, thus opening a world where I can get chipotle whenever I want it (and I am willing to ride my bike notso/kinda far). And then there will be bones and fringe and big bang theory to watch when I get home tonight from band practice from 7-9. An overall awesome evening

Friday
I will be taking advantage of an empty house for a day, and waking up early(ish) so I can have the living room to myself to play video games, watch cartoons, and watch movies (depending on my mood). Then I plan on a lunch of potato skins (which I loooove), or ordering some pizza hut (cuz no one else likes it, but I, again, looooove it). Then once my dad gets home I will probably pick at my English commonplace book (which I'm cool with, cuz it's creative). Then we have a football game that I will get to spend time at until half time being with the band, then go home and do our usual family movie night. So a good day.

Saturday
I am going to do my homework, and all the annoying things that come with it. Then I will probably just have a normal Saturday at home like I normally do. Or perhaps I will bug for some driving time (on the road, in a car I feel safe in, unlike my dad's monstrosity of a sports car) and/or going out to buy Kat's bday present of epicness.

Sunday
This shall possibly be a day of going into Chicago, if I can manage to wear my dad down. Because even though it's the Chicago marathon day, which means things will be somewhat crazy, the race only passes by the magnificent mile near the begining. So things should be fine. And I really want to go to the beckoning of lovely meeting at 10:10 PM (on 10:10 =] ), because not only would the meeting be cool, but JOHN GREEN is there. I'd like to get a (some) signed book(s) very much. And possibly one for ashley since I sort of failed on the other book front *blush*

Monday
Day of rest and finishing homework. I plan on much video game playing. And then I don't know if I have jazz band. I shall ask though.

And that will be my awesome weekend. I promise many updates on its awesomeness this weekend (which means blogging every day this weekend... seeing as how I haven't done something so consecutive in a while).

Also, some good things from this week:
  • Freedom from jazz band practice on Monday
  • Got some good grades (and one terrible one *blushes again*)
  • Appear to have made 2 new friends
  • Talked to Corey sporadically (which is compared to nothing for two straight months)
  • Got an ACT prep book (sounds not so good to you, but to me it's heaven) from my school
  • Mom brought home belgium chocolate pudding from trader joe's (this is a godsend, and I worship it accordingly).
For y'all who shall at least be having a three day weekend (columbus was an idiot sailing west to get east and found a hunk of land day! HUZZAH!), do you have any interesting plans?

I shall be going now because there are some more interwebz things to do for a bit before I have to go to dinner and then band.

Have a wonderful remainder of Thursday,
Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: I use epic a lot, don't I?

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Friends Make the World Go Round

I was reading Marissa's blog, because I woke up at 7:30 today, and the internet can be worn out very quickly when you're on before everyone is up. And I found wordle.

THIS IS THE COOLEST THING EVER!

I gave it the link to my blog, and it was like it had suddenly formulated me to perfection. It just knew who I was. And that was incredibly cool. I'm gonna be testing some of my word doccuments with it momentarily. Link here: http://www.wordle.net/show/wrdl/2515584/My_Blog

In other news, I talked to one of my best friends who is like my brother but not really and whatnot for the first time in months on skype. I knew I missed him, but man, you don't really realize these things until you're talking to them. It wasn't even that interesting of a conversation, it felt like we'd just talked yesterday, but I still realized how much I'd missed him. I think I made him stay up too late talking to me though. We were both basically falling asleep at the end of it.

The agenda for this weekend is a hectic one. Around one I'm going to be going to my friend's house so we can work on our history project. And then I have to get all of my homework (which is thankfully, virtually nothing) done today, because we have our first marching band competition Sunday (where I will get to see the band my first middle school feeds into as well =]) so there will be no time for such silly things as homework. But of course, tonight we're going out for dinner, which means we'll probably leave the house around four and go around the shops and whatnot. I actually need to stop at a toy store or video game store though, because my friend Kat's birthday is coming up, and I know EXACTLY what I'm getting her. There's no way she won't love it =)

And then, while I have never read the hunger games, my friend has, and she loves it, so unless she tells me otherwise I'm getting her a signed book since Suzanne Collins is going to be in Illinois on Monday. I won't be able to actually be there because of jazz band practice, but usually you can call a store and they'll get you a personalized autographed book that you can pick up later. I know she will love this as well. And since I'm going to be sending Kat something anyways, I'll probably just send both things together so I can save on shipping. Yay for economization!

Is economization even a word? It should be.

I'm gonna go take a shower and all that jazz, because I haven't done that since... 29 hours ago!

Laters,
Jess the Nerdfighting BandGeek

PS: I'm gonna do supernote most definitely, but I don't know if I should be on the vlogbrothers', meekakitty's, or wheezywaiter's team. Leaning towards meekakitty a little bit.
PPS: Courtney, if you're reading this, I love you, because only you and I can have the first four texts in our conversation not actually be conversation.